ah.. it’s a little bit hard to move out from this blog…
but i think it’s time to move on…
this is the blog that i kept all my memories.. all my feels… and i think, it serves enough.. now, time to get another blog!!
GUYS, i’m moving out from friendster to blogspot.. so, click here to go to my new blog! hope it will be a better blog to be
don’t forget this blog though… for those who love my previous posts, thanks!
ahh… i really miss the times when i can sleep comfortably… this recess week is just way too hectic…
sometimes, singing becomes such a burden, although it still fun though… but sometimes, to listen, to sing, to think, become such a hard task to do..
i need a break from all this daily stuffs….
and so, the recess week passed… tommorow is another study-week… that means, hello tutorials, hello lecturers, hello quizzes… i wonder, how could it be, that singing is harder than being awake in lectures… damn…
can’t imagine what will happen to this week’s quizzes… have 3 quizzes.. and all of them are quiet… sucks… hope i can do well..
anyway, choir concert is so near… only 5 days left.. and, are we doing well? whew… it’s like having another 56 AUs, and the exam is next 9th of march…
the only ‘lecture’ that lecturers can scold.. and threaten us to cancel the ‘exam’… haha
really want to take a break(out) of this.. wanna be free for a while… relaxing my burdened mind… chit chatting with friends… ahh….
finished the MSE challenge jobs… yay! ahhhh.. am i going home this semester breaaaakkk???!!!
Who am I? have u ever wondered about who is yourself? maybe there’s no way for us to know the grand question.
who we are, I think is a question that we need to find the answer, as life goes on, never to find the complete truth of it even until the time we close our eyes.
but, what we are, is another story.. we are what other people think bout us. people say, impression is built within 5 seconds. but that’s not what i mean..
what we are, in the view of others.. it’s a question.. but will we find the answer? never know..
for lots of people, maybe we are those who loves to talk.. loves to make joke.. loves to make funny things…
but maybe, inside that person, it’s just… a path that we choose, because he is running from something…
maybe for other sets of people, he’s just a person who doesn’t speak much, loves to share, a more introvert person…
never know.. never know…
but again, what are we in others’ view? are we just a passby-ers in their life? who just come and go? or are we someone who fills their life?
guess we’ll never know… people acclaimed to be best friends.. but where are they when the other needs him? guess the statement "ur my best friend" is being abused..
i wonder, at the time when someone is being asked "who’s ur best friend", will someone pick my name from their list? or i’m just being a person in the last?
everyone need a place, to lean their back.. need a place to talk and share.. need a place to open their masks and be themselves…
we are wearing masks almost everyday… in front of people that we don’t like, we still have to put a smiling mask.
then at he time, can we open the mask? to show everyone who we really are? or at that time, the mask stick to our face, that if you open the mask, all your skin will be peeled at the same time?
then, in the end, what do we have? good names, good friends, enemies, or… nothing?
"when will my reflection show who I am inside?" - reflection
funny though, how human brain works..
sometimes, when facing hardships, I wished, that at the time I woke up the next morning, everything will be just a nightmare, and I’m awake from it.. too bad, it wasn’t
sometimes, after losing something dear, friendships, family, even beliefs, I wished, that after a blink of eyes, all things will turn out well, and everything was just a mere illusion… too bad, it wasn’t
sometimes, humans need to be shocked, to bring us back from the dream world we lived in.. to bring us back, to the bitter world. full of challenges, full of tears, full of anger and despair.
a world isn’t full of happiness, it’s not packed just with joyous things, it’s not perfect as well..
a world is just an array of crystal, with lots of defects and things.. within the crystal sites, there’s holes, boundaries, interstitial, vacancies..
while in the world, within the joyous stuffs, there’s hatred, anger, despair, betrayal, sadness, and pain…
but again… just like a crystal.. all the defects, is responsible for the reaction capable in the crystal.. similar as the world.. all the bad stuffs, just brings more color to us, the people in it..
as there’s no crystal which is perfect, it’s impossible to make a perfect world..
"but three things will remains… faith, hope, and love"
then, let there be hope… hope of creating a better life..
the world needs light.. can we be the light?
"which is better? to die after fulfilling a dream? or to live, sacrificing a dream?" - Taiyou No Uta
human’s life is just too precious for us, to lean back and watch at the past. time is just too priceless, to waste it and do nothing. then, have u done something that will be remembered by everyone? have u created a memory for people around u?
human never satisfied of what they have.. never realized, how many gifts they have… until it’s time to let everything go, then, we’ll realize what we always had…
there will be no right choice… nor there will be a wrong choice… it’s just a matter, whether u will regret your choice, or not…
yay! just less than 22 hours, i’ll be back home, bouncing in my bed, meeting my family and friends.. so irresistable…
thanks for the NTU choir for being such a wonderful friends, and the opportunity to carol together! yay! altho it cost a lil bit too much, but it was fun..
goodluck for ur rest of the carolling sessions! cya in next sem! "so sweet, so sweet, so mellow mellow"
wanna buy chicken pie.. but forgot to do it today… ahh.. have to cancel the thought i think… no time already…
for smukiez-choir.. ganbatte-ne! gonna have a few carollings here and there! hope u guys sing well! wish u good luck for the xmas celebration too! i hope i could come!
hope i can still post blog @ indo.. since the internet speed is so damn slow there.. arghh.. very2 worried bout my exam results which will be announced soon.. damn damn! hav to open it @ indo.. the speed even make me annoyed…
"there is always choices in the world. the matter is, whether u want to see them, or not.."
ahh..it’s been quite a long time since i posted my last blog…
very2 busy with choir stuffs.. got choir camp, carolling here and there..
at the beginning, the camp was just like a torture of mind and body.. very tiring..
but in the end,it was very fun… we managed to somehow bind ourselves.. talking to other people, laughing together, etc etc… very fun..
now, got very busy bcoz of the carolling.. but it was also fun.. singing together for half an hour… really miss smukiez choir though…
can’t wait to go back to jakarta… wanna meet my friends.. meet my family… hufff
hoahem… tired again… think gonna have a nice nap after this… for my friends who already finished their exams.. congratz! and those having remedial, it’s not the end of the world.. keep trying!
for those in PTN, and having UAS soon, good luck man! really looking forward to meet u guys!
ahhh… feel so lonely… everyone’s gone back alreadyyy!
ahh… after 3 weeks of exam period… 6 exams, and lots of hard work (?), at last exam period is finished.. closed with a quite glorious 1003… haha
gotta prepare the schedule for next semester, think what subject to take, and start a brand new semester…
but before that… hmmm…
although the exam is finished, lots of things just began… choir carolling and practices and camp… welfare subcomm ISG thingy and mse-challenge thingy…
hufff… really dunno whether these things gonna be fun or what…
one thing i just can’t wait… i wanna go home!! i want to meet my family, my friends, my choir friends, lots of people… wanna eat lots of stuffs i missed… ahhhh
for my friends in PTN, good luck for your coming UAS.. hope i can make it for the plan going to Bdg.. really looking forward to it
ahhh.. wanna go somewhere from NTU… been a month or so, never went out from Boon Lay-region… sucks!
hey, what the? how come the count down goin up again?
but yeah.. it’s another countdown.. it’s a countdown to the time when i’ll be back home… ahhh.. can’t wait… can’t wait until the exam period finished, can’t wait until choir-thingy finished, can’t wait until 16 dec came…
I’m having a physics exam today, and what am i doing here? sitting in front of my laptop, typing some weird blog, playing RO…. hell, I played even more in exam periodd?? really EXhausting AMat period…
ahh.. don’t know what is my past-exams result.. just wait for the transcript, and shock.. shocked because it is better than expected? or because it’s worse? my my..
for friends who’re doing the same things as myself… ganbatte! exam is almost over.. a week left, and then a hallelujah chorus will be played throughout the campus.. haha
ah… 4 hours until phy exam.. still not studying… what happened to meee??
It’s 2 days left to my first exam in university life.. sheeshh… and it’s math, once again… still stuck with the stupid things such as vectors, differential, integral… not to mention complex numbers (which is really complex), and matrices…
I still remember my MSN nick about a year ago… when I was having integral test in high school… "intergrity is good, integral is sucks"
geez, now, i just need to use that nick once again.. at least until 17 nov is over.. haha
having lots of problems with stuffs… 1001,1004,1005,1006,102,1003.. maybe 1003 is not really a problem.. but still, an exam is an exam.. anything might happen…
problem is… I’m easily tempted by laptop… helluva, thanks lapty! u made my near-exam-period such a waste… but now, since it’s 2 days left… no choice but to study as maniac… KIASU mode: ON!
thinking about all the exams in front… fear there is.. but there’s joy too, because after exam period… (evil grin)…
really miss jkt… wanna go home…
exam is drawing near… how will I do in the exam? mystery it is…
damn.. vealor, fidre, fidel castro, u really have to be patient… after 28th nov, i’ll be back to u… esp vealor… get ready for auraa!! ahhaha (RO maniac…)
really envy lasalle guys, goin home already! aghhh…
head spins, head hurts, heart worries,
eyes shut down, and go to sleep..
exam period, oh exam period, just pass by, and give me A plus
after that, i just can enjoy my vacation!
good luck all my friends who’re having exams! all non-MSE freshie (except cing2), esp my rumie! ganbatte for econs!
for all non-freshie who’re having exam tommorow, good luck!! (vandut, pig-bro, cc geje)
120% power!
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ahh… 10 days left to the 1st exam…
really frightening it is… but yeah, hope i do the best
most of the lectures are finished, and so do the tutorials… a few left…
ahhh… wanna go home as fast as possible.. can’t wait to eat Warjo.. Goli… Pecel lele.. even pizza hut.. ahaha
starting to love my life at NTU… although it starts to rain everyday… hate the rain…
for a friend, whether u read this or not.. be strong… don’t give up on what u’ve started.. it is a choice u’ve chosen.. and u need to be responsible for it…
for another friend, please stay strong. although the world crumbles, stand still and have faith…
ahh.. i really miss my smukie friends.. hope the yearbook published soon, and hope the puzzle will be perfected in next 10 years… haha.. crazy idea, but fun it is
but yeah, time is running without stop.. no matter how we tried to reverse it, not even a chance we are able to delay it even a sec… nice eh?
but anyhow… learned a lot of things in NTU.. not just new formulas and stuffs, but also lots of life lessons…
i learn, how to give thanks.. for a lot of small things
i learn, that we shouldn’t "do what we like", but "like what we do"
and i do believe.. those things are something valuable, that can’t be learned in any lecture…
for the remaining 10 days… i hope i really could do well… gotta prove to myself!
ganbatte myselff!!
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